I am sorry if I don't parade
My shattered sensibilities
Around my neck,
Like a garland of self-pity
For the whole world to see.
I apologise
If I don't shout in pain
Or cry when I bleed.
It's not that I am numb
Or profoundly dumb.
If you could see further
Than what meets my eyes
Then you too would know
How there is nothing
Left in me
That is
Unscathed.
Though there are scars in abundance,
Even tombstones and sorrows
Deep within me,
They leave no pain,
No tear, or whatever else
Which lies beyond remedy.
And all the wounds
I have gathered to this day
Will be named: FRIENDSHIP
Though their marks
Are everlasting,
Bright as a jewel,
I am wiser now
Than ever before.
And may be I can never be
As soft as tofu,
Or demure like a blushing bride,
And that my steel exterior
May seem crude and cold,
The sacred truth is simple,
There is a heart
That beats inside of me
With every breath,
With every passion,
It still beats.
I still believe in the pursuit of life, love and happiness
Just perhaps without sex
Because enjoyment in life does not stem from that
Or revolve around that.
Yes, that’s just me.
It is not a phase or a whim of the moment.
It has been a life long road to realisation.
And no, I am not depriving myself either.
And no, it is not going to take someone to come along and make me feel otherwise.
In fact it is the exact opposite.
So, here is my DAY THIRTY-NINE :-
Weight: 53kg
No. Of Prostrations: 150 (no, it is not a typo. I did 150)
Daily Sadhanas: Check and Done with Death Meditation and Dzambala Mantra.
Physical Exercise: 45 mins
Daily Reflection from "IF NOT NOW, WHEN?" – Here we go. I close my eyes and I picked out page 101.
OH MY GAWD! I LOVE THIS QuoTE!
Quote from Page 101 for Day Thirty-Nine:
“We transform our minds because we love people – we love our parents, our spouses, our lovers, our friends and the people around us. We transform our minds out of love. It is not something negative that we have to do.”
Personal Thoughts and Feelings:
*Shirley can’t stop laughing*
And you wonder why...?
You are certainly very good at poetry. Thanks fr sharing your thoughts.
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